It is undeniable that we have these moments in our life. The moments that unmistakably impact our world. In these moments we know that everything is about to change .... or has changed. Our life can be split into the time before and the time after that defining moment.
One such moment for me, came from following a complete whim and getting on a plane to go to Durban for a weekend .... alone. This intuitive nudge got me to face my deepest fears and meet an angel that magically transformed my life. I remember the moment like yesterday. Strolling past my dinner table, he asked "why you look so sad?". To my horror I was found out! Sitting alone in a hotel dining room, the first time since my divorce, I hoped I looked sophisticated, grown up, elegant .... yet he saw my sadness. A night of flirting, smiling and awakening happened after that moment. I will never forget him, I can't remember his name and I have never seen him since but he is undeniably a major part of my life and it is clear to me that the woman I was that arrived in Durban was not the one that left.
I will never forget the moment I faced death and grew up, standing in a dirty little morgue seeing my brother in laws lifeless body. Or the moment I said the words I feared the most, "I want a divorce..", seeing the pain it caused and knowing that nothing for my family would be the same after that point yet feeling a deep knowing and relief that I had finally spoken my truth. The journey of pain, loss, healing and self-discovery following these moments is life altering.
These moments may be the slow magical slide into awareness, or the glance into the eyes of a stranger, a choice to say yes, a choice to say no. They may also be the moments when the walls come crashing down, when your heart stops faced with the pain of loss or the consequences of a bad choice. One phone call, one decision and time stands still. We know - it will never be the same again.
These defining moments whether bathed in the beauty and seduction of joy and love or housed in the mockery of pain, hurt, deceit and shame have the same impact.
They wake us up. They bring us to our truth.
Like Sleeping Beauty being woken up by her own true loves kiss, her Soul, these moments bring us into the presence of ourself.
Our soul awakens, and it doesn't mind how, it just is grateful for the awakening.
Our biggest challenge is to stay awake.